Wow, almost (if not all) of my paycheck is gone. I had to buy some more new blouses for my new job and wasn’t expecting my bill to be quite that much. I also went online to see my class schedule and to see if my English Professor had been announced yet, but still says “TBA.” I needed to get my books for my math class anyway; it was way expensive for them bundled and I didn’t realize until today I had the option of buying the two of the books seperately. So, I went online and found them seperate and spent about half of what the bundled book cost. But still! It’s so expensive (especially since my loan hasn’t come in yet!)

The payment for my classes is due by the 18th (tomorrow!) and because my loan has not been processed, packaged and been available, I also had to put 25% of the class(es) down so that I wouldn’t be dropped from the classes because the loan hasn’t been processed and packaged yet. I now have until October 23rd to come up with the remaining balance - and hopefully the loan will be ready by then, or else this first semester is totally on me. I really wish that someone had explained to me in the way beginning that the FAFSA does not seek out loans, but only grants that you qualify for and that loans are completely seperate entities. And yes, after standing in line for an hour and a half on Thursday, I finally did get to talk to someone which is how I found out all of these things.

Friday was a pretty sad day for me. One of my coworkers gave me a cake and I wound up crying (I’m such a softy!) I recieved hugs from just about everyone - and that made me cry all over again. Who would have thought I could have been so attached to these people? I am really going to miss some of my favorite customers, and even as much as I complain about one of the ladies there, she is the one I will miss the most. I am excited for tomorrow, but a little nervous too. I’m worried that I won’t fit in or be up to par with what they want. I hope that I’ve gotten the right clothes and the right styles; and I hope I look the part.But I think that everyone feels that way before their first day, right? I know that if I just put my head to it, I know that I will succeed!

People have called me crazy recently for starting a new job and starting college all within 2 weeks of each other. Yes, I do think I am a little crazy, but I think that I can handle this; actually I know I can! These were things I needed to do and wanted to do. I need to create a better vision of myself and see myself differently and this is how I’m going to do it. People can either choose to like me or choose not to like me, but the only person that really matters in all of this is myself. I’ll be able to financially get back on my feet and that is one thing I’m really looking forward to!

I had the opportunity this weekend to stay at my sister and brother in laws house while they were away for their anniversary (Happy Anniversary guys! I love ya!) and it was the most liberating experience. I’ve forgotten how much I enjoy being able to be alone etc. Its not that I can’t do that at my parents house, but it’s a completely different scenario when you are truly by yourself. I realized that unfortunately, I am allergic to Labs (anytime Marley came within a few feet of me, my eyes burned and I felt congested) so that crosses them off my list. But that’s okay. I had fun tossing the tennis ball for Cody (the Shepherd) and getting licked to death by Marley regardless of how I felt healthwise. I love my sisters house, it’s just perfect. Quiet street and I love their yard. They are doing such a great job remodeling their house, it’s going to look fabulous when it’s all done!