Alright, so those of you who were asking me when I was going to get off my keester and make the weight loss blog – there it is on the bottom footer called “Less of Me.” Free to join and blog about your weight loss journey. Spammers and nay-sayers will be ip banned.

So, this week was really rough. I applied for a job that offered more money than what I’m making now, but I didn’t get it. J did though and I’m happy for her…well…as happy as I can be. I really do feel sometimes that I get crapped on for things like this because I’m not outspoken enough. A lot of that, I think, has to do with the way I view myself. And right now I feel like a fat lard and sometimes a little down on myself. So that’s one of my motivations on creating “Less of Me.” I figure, if I lose weight then I’ll see myself better. I mean I kind of took this as half insult, half compliment yesterday. One of my favorite customers said “Jamie, you get prettier every time I see you!” I’m well known for wearing my hair in a bun every day – and S hated me wearing makeup – so I looked very run down. But since we’ve been broken up, I’ve colored my hair, been wearing it down and wearing makeup.

Sometimes I feel like a new person.

And next Wednesday (I’m pretty sure I have off!) I’ll be going down to the campus and signing up for classes in the Fall (providing I can get a loan). I really want to do this and I think that will help my self-esteem even more. I mean, I’ve gotten rid of so many things – this will be something positive that I do for myself. And I do have someone that I’m interested in, and I think one person is interested in me. I just don’t know if I’m quite ready to make that leap yet into the flirty girl. I mean, it’s amazing to go out and live my life and not have to worry about if he’s going to be home when I get home, or omg, I spent 5 bucks, do I have to tell him? kinda deal. Although I do miss the company, really, for us – it’s better this way.

So, anyway, if you’re curious, just click the link on the right and it will take you to Less Of Me.