Today, the first thing I was greeted with was “I was going to ask you how you were feeling, but I’ll just shut my mouth,” says a fellow co-worker. Yes, I’ll admit it. I had a puss on my face. I was hurting so bad; it feels like my back needs someone to just give it a good crack. I ignored the woman’s comments and went to work. Bending, standing, counting medications, reaching - by 11 o’clock I was practically in tears. I called my Doctors office and asked them if they could see me. “I’m sorry, we don’t take car insurance - but let me give you the number to someone who does.” I was fine with this and called the other Doctors office. I’m used to just handing someone my insurance card, and everything being taken care of.

Oh no, that’s not the way it was to be.

I made the appointment for 4:30 this afternoon and called my Mother to tell her. “Jamie!” she exclaimed. “You just have to call them up and ask them what they’re going to rap you. Those kinds of Doctors put you on all kinds of medications and Chiropractors fix it so that you have to keep coming back!” So I called them up and asked them what it would be without my Car insurance or regular health insurance. Three to five hundred dollars - and that was just the office visit. Five hundred?! I’d be responsible for 20% plus whatever else they sent off. I quickly called them back and told them “I just don’t have the money for that.”

I call my own Doctors office back (and office that I’d been going to for at least the last year and a half) and got into a semi-argument with one of the nurses. “I told you we don’t take car insurance.” I said “Well, can’t we just forget the car insurance and use my regular insurance? I don’t know if this is related to my car accident or not!” she tsk tsked like I was 3 and said “They will just deny it, and you’ll wind up owing more and you’d be commiting insurance fraud.” I burst into tears and said “I don’t have the money to go to the other place and it’s not my fault!” We hung up and I cried for a good fifteen minutes quietly near the back counter.

I felt so bad for yelling at them (and I was a little miffed at how she talked to me) but I decided that I was going to call them back after work and apologize. I didn’t care if they put “Crazy person” on my file, or anything, I just wanted to clear the air. This was the Doctor who took care of me after the whole “lymphoma” incident with the other Doctor, and I did not want to be in their bad graces. I just spilled it all out that I wanted to say I was sorry because I wasn’t very nice and yadda yadda yadda.

She said “Oh, it’s okay - but did you get it all straightened out?” and I told her no, and a little about what happened and she said “awww, I’m so sorry!” she put me on hold and told me to call a number in the morning because “maybe they can help you” she said. Oh - trust me lady, I’ll call. I wound up feeling better because I apologized (even if I did nothing wrong) and she sounded much happier and was much more willing to help me after that whole “I’m sorry thing.”

So, tomorrow hopefully the Deputy will call back and he can issue the girl a ticket, or suspend her license or something…and hopefully when I get the bill for the ER visit, it won’t be that much. If it is, I’ll just have to find some way to retain a lawyer and go after the girl or her parents. No one should have to go through this - no one. And the fact that I’m already tight for cash doesn’t help matters one bit.

Okay, so I’ve just popped my prescription strength Ibuprofen and am about to climb (sorely) into bed for the night. Words of wisdom to live by - drive slow in the rain. I was rear-ended by someone on Saturday night (I was stopped and they slid into me doing about 15-20mph after they slammed on their brakes). My car only received small scratches but my back and my ribcage hurts quite a lot tonight. Tomorrow is off to work (joy).

And what really, really, pisses me off about the whole situation is that the person did not have car insurance - so now everything falls onto me and my policy. Its just not fair. I’ve just started to get on the ball with things and had everything all planned out. My income tax check was going to the cell phone company so that I can finally not have to worry about that payment anymore. The other half was going to Keegans shots and spay. Now I have to choose what is more important. The health of my dog, or the bill that has crept up on me.

Now, I’m going to have to pay the 20% of my hospital bills from the accident. Do not get me wrong. I love my car insurance company and they’ve been mighty helpful. I will be staying with Allstate for as long as I own a vehicle. I just wish I had thought to carry the uninsured motorist coverage - but I never thought it would happen to me! I will be getting a bill for 20% which I have to submit to my own health insurance which will go to my deductible, so therefore I’ll be paying out-of-pocket for them. Which is flat out ridiculous. It’s not my fault that she hit me and it’s certainly not my fault that she didn’t carry insurance, why should I be penalized and charged up the ying yang to pay off my own things. I didn’t stop in the middle of the road and scream “Come hit me!”

I am writing this so that I can document my pain - so that way if I ever wind up taking her to court for damages, I can provide this as evidence. I can stand and sit. Walking hurts mostly after a while, and I really feel like I have a bruised Kidney or something. The pain from sitting quickly starts at my tailbone and rises up my back and it’s like my lower back to the middle of my shoulder blades go on fire. Right now I just want to crawl in a hole and die. I’m hoping that the pain goes away soon. I also have a headache that hasn’t gone away in a day now.

Snap. This was the January I was going to attempt blogging every day, remember? So I totally failed, but seriously that’s alright. I did manage to snap quite a few photos this time around - and I really enjoyed messing around with this theme - it is my favorite and it will be on for quite a while.

At work yesterday, my coworker J whips out about 2 or 3 slices of pizza from the refridgerator. I mean, these were 3 meat pizzas plus bacon on top. I totally caved. I picked off her bacon - and you know that you have to be really good friends with someone, if you totally let them use their fingers to take bacon off the pizza you were just planning on eating. “I totally want Pizza now, thanks to you,” I told her. So, she gives me the shifty eye and says “So, let’s all go out to Cici’s tonight.” Oh no she didn’t! Oh, but she did. So, I called up Sidney and said “J invited us to go out to that Cici’s pizza tonight with her and S.” He surprised me by saying yes.

So, right as we walk in, J turns to me and says “Look, there’s a Weight Watchers right next door!” We found this incredibly funny as our first meeting is Tuesday (though not at this location) and the WW was totally next to an all you can eat pizza buffet. Not a wise choice, right? So, then while we’re eating our Pizza, S says “Enjoy your last free days of eating Pizza, ladies.” Sidney grins and pats my shoulders and says “Though I still can’t get why you just don’t watch your portions.”

J and I threw bits of crust at him.

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So, last night I made Swiss Steak. It was actually pretty good and I enjoyed it. The first time I made it I was like “Ew, this can’t be good.” But this time I bought some fresh carrots (instead of the prepackaged sliced), a bunch of celery and left out the onion and mushrooms (the recipe called for Onions, but I didn’t like the way they tasted). Your supposed to take a meat mallet and pound the flour/salt/pepper into the meat, but I just totally dredged it lightly in the flour and shook off the excess.

And I’m totally looking into Weight Watchers. I’m hoping that my paycheck next week will be big enough so I can do the free registration and then the pay as you go. I’m totally nervous because how on earth will I live without my Potato Chips? Or the Chili Cheese Fritos? I totally get bored with sweet things, I’m must more of a salty person. I guess I could take the no salt added popcorn and add Parmesan cheese to it. They say that’s okay (not WW but in general).

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Only lame people get excited when they get new batteries for their camera. Thats why one of my nicknames is “Lamie Jamie” I guess Seriously though, I picked up these new batteries for my camera and I am very happy with them. They are the same batteries I had gotten last time and they seemed to have lasted forever (at least a couple of weeks) and I’ve been taking pictures like crazy, lately. The picture posted is the sunrise from this morning. Its like the sky was on fire! Just beautiful, beautiful. Crazy beautiful even.

I totally didn’t do what I said I was going to the other day. Instead I laid underneath my down comforter and watched t.v. What better of a sick day is there? The thing that got me was I didn’t eat because it really hurt my stomach (which is why I had called out, stomach problems). Yesterday I took an acid reflux over the counter medication to see if I could get rid of the endless stomach pain. It literally felt like someone was taking a big butcher knife and twisting it right in my stomach. Surprisingly, it worked. Which leads me to think I’m getting an ulcer. I had one when I worked for a different company when I had gotten way stressed out and right before I had quit. This makes me think that subconsciously I am getting ready to either have a major breakdown at work, or overwhelmed with all the changes with maybe a tad of “do I really want this anymore?” Don’t get me wrong, I like what I do. I love my customers (well, the majority of them) but the new pharmacist wants everything done “by the book.” If you are getting the end result correct (which would be the correct medication for the right customer and the customer leaves happy) why on earth does it matter how you got that?

I might be going to the park today, or I might not. I heard it’s going to rain today. And glancing at the clock just sent butterflies to my stomach. I really don’t want to go to this Doctor appointment. And Bobbi, no I don’t take a Multivit. I should though. I was thinking about the One-A-Day Weight Smart, but am not too sure. And does anyone have a plug-in that I can use for WP to add my lovely commenters to the top of the previous post for “Commenters” ? Kind of like a “Plug” of sorts?

So, on Saturday I was really sick at work. I begged management to let me go home and because I am the only one who knows how to do a procedure, they were like “fine, if you can get someone and train them before you go.” I was like wtf? So, I called in one of the other Techs and she calls me back and says “No, I’m babysitting my boyfriends baby with him.” Okay, first of all. If your boyfriend is the “Dad” then it’s not babysitting. It’s called Parenting. Second of all, leave the child and the Father to do their Father and son bonding and freaking come to work. Of course I didn’t say that. I just weakly said “Okay, thanks for thinking of me,” I hung the phone up and burst into tears.

I wound up staying the whole day after sitting on my butt pretty much all day. I felt a little better by about 4 or 5 o’clock. Then I went home, made sweet and sour chicken (which was really yumm-o by the way). And then proceeded to feel like crap again. Which brings me to this morning. I thought I could do it, I thought I could get up, take a shower and go to work. That was before I got out of bed. Ha. I called out. I did pretty good there and didn’t miss a day in about 7 months. I caught some flak for it, but seriously. Why is it that when I call out I get yelled at and everyone else is just like “I hope you feel better.” Even the ones that call out on a weekly basis. That just annoys the hell out of me.

So, Sidney and I had a very romantic evening last night. He was so sweet. I have been buying these awesome mini angel food cakes from Sweetbay and I am in love with them. I’ve been topping them with fresh strawberries from there as well. Normally I do not like Florida strawberries as they are always picked way too soon and are too tart and bitter. However, the ones I’ve been getting from Sweetbay are very sweet and very, very, very, very good. He brought home the mini angel Food Cakes, milk and strawberries and served it to me while I was wrapped under his blanket watching t.v. Sometimes he can be so charming *blush*

Even though I’m home sick today, I still have things to do that I was planning to do when I got home from work. I need to vacuum and switch my sheets around on my bed. Every single time I put my sheets on my king size bed, I always put them on the wrong way. I usually look at the flat sheet to see which way the design is going, but I forgot this time. I hate when my sheets are in the least bit loose. I also have to sweep out on my front “porch” area. The landlords wife had put new potting soil in everyones plants and managed to spill on ours. I am also planning, to take a better video of Keegan today (providing my batteries will last). You can view the first video at my youtube account here. It’s not a very good video on my end - I had had a better one but Youtube was like “Video can not exceed…” blah blah blah. Turns out, even though I used to put video files on Youtube with my 3 mp Nikon, because this is an 8 mp camera, the file size is way bigger (greater than 100mb) and it didn’t matter the time frame, just the size of the file. Whoops. I learned something new.

Edit: Yes, this is a new theme. I did not like the other one at all This photo was taken by me