So, today is Christmas and it totally doesn’t feel like it! I’ve got this darn cold (I thought it was turning in to the flu at one point) and this is year number 8 that I’ve been sick for Christmas. Poo on you, lol. Sidney got me this beautiful necklace from Gordons Jewelry. It says I <3 U (the <3 is a heart, btw). In each letter there is 3 tiny diamond studs Very pretty. I had asked for a DS but I think this is much, much better.

We went over my parents (we normally go in our Pajamas but I didn’t get the memo we weren’t this year). So everyone else is dressed in their normal clothes and there I sit in my plaid pajama bottoms and my red shirt, ha ha! I felt like such a ‘tard. I got this bag from Bealls I wanted, it’s patchwork and corduroy. It is very cute. I also got a Polaroid i583 (8 megapixel) camera from my folks. I think this and the necklace are the best gifts I got this year

More to come later, folks.

Mom and I went to the mall tonight. What is it with people who just stop and point in front of you? It goes a little something like this (perhaps you’ve seen it too):

Person 1 (stands pointing) “Ooh, I see something across the mall in that tiny store over that way.”
Person 2 (stops and stares) “Oh that store over there?”
Person 1 (still stopped and pointing, only looking at person 2) “No, the other store, the one with the” (insert random item here) “in the window.”
Person 2 “Do you want to go there now?”
Person 1 “No, on the way back” (resume walking)

Seriously, people! And then, just stopping dead in your tracks while you’ve got a line of people behind you trying to move past you and your herd of bags around you is just ridiculous. And thank god for bitchy cashiers who point their fingers and say “The line starts over there” after we’d been standing there for 15 minutes waiting and this person cuts in front of us. Wow. The nerve of some people.

By 10 o’clock I had had it. That was it, I was done shopping and no amount of bribery would work on me. I even stopped by Walmart to pick up some of those ornaments and said “No, I still have to buy things for everyone.” and then Mom told me the round about how much my sister had spent on me. Okay, if there was a dollar limit, I beat her by $10 bucks. For her and my Brother in law, I beat her by about $20. Nice. I don’t really care at this particular moment in time. I feel like I’m done caring about everything and anything at this point.

I did, however, on Sunday make the best soup I’ve ever made in my entire life. Beef stock, vegetables (including corn, string beans, carrots, celery, onion and a little cabbage), and crushed tomato. Yum. I love soup. Especially when it’s cold and you’re just watching t.v. Yes, it’s the perfect kind of food Sidney comes home on Thursday and I’m a little nervous as to how everything is going to go….but so far, so good. I’m exhausted, so more to blog later!

My living room is enveloped in this warm red hue from my Christmas tree. I listened to some holiday music from the radio and sipped hot chocolate, pretending it was cold outside. I’m missing Sidney tonight, as he’s on his vacation. I don’t know why things are making a turn-around in my relationship, but maybe it’s a good thing. I really can’t wait to see him when he comes back next week. I think I really like the rustic type of ornaments (Vintage Santas and Moose/Elk things, carved wood with colors like cream, browns, rusty reds, golds). I would have totally gone overboard and bought all the things, but right now it doesn’t fit into our style with the rest of the place. Someday!

I still have some shopping to do, though I don’t really feel like it. I have no idea what to get people this year and it’s not that I’m poor, its just that everyone has everything they could possibly want or need! I think I’ve kinda lost the meaning of Christmas for that reason, and that reason alone. Christmas isn’t about the buying and the recieving. It’s about being with the ones you love and cherish.

So, after having the crappiest week ever - I just needed a night out. A night without doggy poo on my floor (and smelling it), a night without listening to a language I’ll never get and mostly, and secretly a night away from you know who. I think I’ve given myself an ulcer, which I’m told you can’t do - but seriously I am all in knots.

Anywho, so my friend invited me over to her new house (which is charming!) and we watched The Holiday. Terrific chick flick. I think that Cameron Diaz’s part would have been awesome for Meg Ryan, but hey. That’s my own preference. omg. I never realized just how freaking hot Jude Law is. To. Die. For. Anyway, the movie was very cute, very what I needed. My friends boyfriend cooked us dinner (to which I was amazed, there are men that cook for their women?! where are they?!) and we giggled over the movie. Such things as “I would so not rent my house out to a stranger,” and “God, what a whore.” But the ending we were all happy with. My decision: I’m definitely buying it for myself if no one else does. All of my CDs and DVDs have become non-existent in this apartment (or have been scratched, broken or lost) and I need to have a new library of stuff.

Then, our other friend from work came over with her boyfriend (who was quite possibly quieter than I will ever be). He played his Nintendo DS and she brought hers over. I felt kind of odd, at 24, to be playing a video game. But hey, 24 is still young enough to, right? Right. At least that’s what I kept telling myself. I’m half tempted to save up for it so I can buy myself Nintendogs - but I fear that I might be in the minority.

I left shortly thereafter because I was tired (I feel old sometimes). And I came home and both cats and dog were waiting for me when I opened the door. The living room was still a mess, the bedroom is even worse. I have to spend this weekend cleaning - or else. The next few weeks are going to be really hard on me, so if I don’t post much that’s your answer I’ll try my best though!

The past few weeks have been hard. Really hard. It’s like a really good book that you just dive right into. You know the ending is like 10 pages away but you don’t want to get to that last page. You want to stay right there on page 210 where you know the characters. You practically lived their lives - and you don’t want there to be an end. Everything has been hard lately, and I want it to end, but I don’t.

I did go back to see my old town. I forgot how much I missed it there. The tree lined streets, the bike path that I used to go on. The store I used to work at with faces I didn’t know. The beach with it’s red flag up because there was an actual surf advisory (instead of a light chop). My old house that use to have lush green grass - only now is covered in thick Florida sand. Skid marks on the driveway and a hole in the window. Friends I went to school with, names I used to know. It was really hard for me to see that because truthfully, the grass is always greener on the other side. You never know what you have until it’s gone.

Thanksgiving was good. I got to wear my new Courdroy pants (love them) and my new shirt (thank God for Kohls). My new clogs from Bealls. Then, there was the discussions of work (and how I don’t make enough), school (about what I should go back for intead of what I want to go for). Questions as I came back from the bathroom and over the top “Do you love me”’s on the way there. The turkey was delicious and I had a little of everything. Sweet potato (which tasted like baby food, folks. Don’t try it), a little bit of the vegetables (corn and broccoli with cauliflower). My favorite is always the Turkey with gravy and the side of cranberry sauce. Dessert was awesome. My sister made a cheesecake (which was very, very good). A little apple pie and we were all set.

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