I just found out that one of my friends got engaged. I went home in tears yesterday because it seems like everyone and their brother is getting engaged and planning their wedding for sometime before mine. It just makes me feel sick to my stomach.

-some 3 hours later-
Whoa, totally forgot I was writing this, time just escaped me. Lessee, outside my bedroom window there is a plume of smoke from a fire from somewhere or another and a rainstorm. I enjoy the rainstorm, but my allergies could live without the smoke. But now the rain is coming stronger (yay!)

So, I went to get my arms stabbed today. The lady at the front desk actually said hello to me today (gasp!) that’s never happened before!

and skipping to a new saga. The satellite dish sucks. I want our cable back.

I sit down and stare at the cursor, like a blog entry is just going to write itself. Then, I snuggle up with the cat in my lap and just wait, to see if just by magic I could write without typing a word. Never works and I walk away from the computer almost empty handed.

This month has been a wonderful month for the boy-toy and me. I don’t know, I just feel different towards him. I think I had a hard time seeing him as a Fiance. I don’t know why. But like at night, I sit down and watch him sleep and I just feel so much closer to him. Sappy, no? June 30th marks 3 years of our life together. I hope that there are many more.

I’ve been having these pangs to go back to school and work on my dream job. But then I get scared that I’ll fail and just don’t wanna try. I would hate to really want it and not be able go because of financial reasons. Dad keeps sending me emails about great vet tech jobs he sees on Monster.com. Most of the time I’ve already applied (this would be a second job, not a total change). I think I know where I want to go, but I don’t know if I could, or even should. I think about it and tear up because I feel like that’s where I’m already supposed to be, not screwing around at [blank]. I enjoy my job right now, I love the people I work with. Sometimes I feel like if I could just pick up all those people and put them in a Vets office, I would be at my dream job. I could always just take the Pharmacy Tech Certification Test, but I think it’s me who keeps stalling.

I think I want to go back to school.

I’m so bad about blogging. Well, for starters, I have to leave my dog with a friend from the Beloveds work tomorrow for the weekend. I don’t know if I like that idea. First, she’s my baby. Second I don’t know this woman very well. I know that she’s got a Cocker named Peaches (or is it Bubbles?) and her Cocker is very bubbly and Keegan, is well. Lazy, dignified. She acts much older and wiser than her 2 years.

But onto people news, Becca asked if we could afford a Nanny, would we when we have children? Simple answer: No. I wouldn’t get to experience the things a Mother should. A maid? yes. but not a Nanny. I would hate having someone come in and bathe my children, teach my children etc when it couldn’t be me.

So, we’re going “Camping” this weekend. I hope it is nice out - and we’ll probably go house hunting. You’ve no idea how bad I want a house with a yard so I can get my Labrador. That was our agreement.

So after getting a nice rainy day on Saturday, yesterday was hot. Windy and hot. Nothing like being hot with hot wind, right? So, we went out to breakfast as usual (ham and cheese omelette with home fries and raisin toast). I don’t know why I can’t eat the whole darn plate like I used to. Oh, I remember why. I don’t like eggs (lol). And they haven’t been putting enough cheese or ham in there to make me not taste the eggs. But then we went to Walmart, saw lots of things I wanted, but just bought groceries for the week. I can’t believe that Campbells soup is up to a 1.25/can. I can remember them being 88 cents!

I totally got another pang to go horseback riding. I don’t know why but I did. Ugh. I hate those feelings.